i meant to write this for your birthday originally, but i felt like the time to tell you was right: “youre the most special boy in every universe you're literally my boy omfg im so lucky i get to call u mine i love you sooosoosoosoo much its insane i have never ever felt this way in my life before its so weird i literally feel like i'm ascending like all the time i cant believe i get to know u and that you're in my life and i love you and i love doing literally anything with you like anywhere u wanna go i wanna go there with u and i wanna be around u all the time and i just wanna hold your hand and its so weird because i hate affection like that from anyone else but i think u are different and idk why that is i love you so much and im literally like half functioning rn bc i havent really done the 12am lock in yet so this is kinda every single thought im having right now and its literally just all you because i've never wanted to think about someone like this in my entire life and i literally cant omg omg omg ur sooooo i literally love you so much i hope this isnt weird because i mean all of it and youre the only person i express things like this to youre literally my universe i can't believe ive only known u for how long as i have because like u said it feels like ive known you forever because of how much it just feels right to be with you and i talk about it all the time there's no way in the universe that i wasn't supposed to meet you its impossible because the chances of me meeting someone like you are so small and yet i did and it's literally been the best thing to happen to me in my entire life you literally care about me more than anyone and i just think about u all the time and im soooooo hapoy i got to tell u how i feel about u because i dont think i would've been able to keep my mouth shut about you anyway i love you and everything you do and youre so fucking important to me” and everything i have said in that, and every message i have shared about how much you mean to me has been absolutely true. now i would completely fill this with metaphors and motifs (dogs even?) if i had the writing capabilities but,,they are a little subpar...so the few that came to my mind randomly will have to do😭but you’re like the moon because i would stay awake all night to look at you like that post about stargazing, which will happen when we do that :3 and i have said this so much but i am so lucky that i get to exist at the same time as you and i think that happens in every lifetime because its impossible that it cant. the connection i have with you is something unlike anything i’ve ever experienced. will toledo said “it only happens once every thousand years, maybe even two thousand years.” (although talking about the pain star in this section, i still think it has relevance because meeting someone who i feel is just absolutely perfect is insanely unlikely.) will then goes on to talk about time, and how quickly it passes. i feel this is very true, ive only known you for a few months really, the first time we ever explored was january 1st. im writing this a little over 4 months later, and i cant believe how close to you ive gotten. i’m insanely lucky, although it is more fate than luck anyway :3 i believe i finally managed the words “i love you” on april 1st, which is both funny and also well-timed. well-timed in the sense that it was exactly 4 months after i first got to meet you, and the time it took for me to fall in love with you, although i think that’s already been that way for a while :3 funny in the sense that, well, yeah it was april 1st 😭 thank god honestly, if you didnt feel the same way i could’ve used that as an excuse. i still cant really get over the fact that my feelings are reflected in yours, that i love you the way you love me. i’ve never felt so important to someone, and i hope you know how sheerly important you are to me. how sheerly important you are. you’ve made a significant difference on my life, finn, and i mean it with utmost sincerity. i’ve never in my life felt motivated to do things just to see a person, like going to school 😭 i used to hate going to school, and to be honest there have been some times where i’ve decided to not fake sickness just because i knew i would get to see you. and that was before i even admitted to liking you!! 😭😭😭 i think for a while i’ve really liked you, i had honestly hoped that i wouldnt because i honestly thought you liked someone else (myla…) and i think i wouldve taken it too badly if i had admitted my feelings and had not been reciprocated with the same. somewhat selfish, but i think i had already fallen too hard for you to not feel greatly affected if that were the case. for that reason, i dont even know if i could ever express my reactions to being told back; “(i like u too)” and “i love you too, callie”. well, for one, my oirs 😭 absolutely flaming. but i felt so good omg literal ecstasy. i was so terrified to tell you, but i am so thankful i did. i really dont think i would’ve been able to not tell you, even if you didnt like me. i think ive just met you at the exact right time, and you are just so exactly right. for me, and for everything. i truly believe you are an amazing person. i know you are so deserving of so much, of love (and i want to give you all of it) and everything you ever want. you deserve it. i mean it. i love you finn, i really love you and everything i say, i mean in totality. like the eclipse, we aligned like the sun and the moon (literally us!!) and created something incredible. im so thankful to have met you, thank you for coming into my life. i wouldnt have wanted it any other way :3 i would continue to yap, but this is already insanity 😭 i love you sosossosososososso much omg i will never shut up about it i love you always in all ways forever finn ❤️
